Saturday, September 30, 2006

friends: how much i miss them



i've realized that i'm living the kind of life that i truly wanted : i have a job, i'm serving in a community, and i finally have the time to help my family. these are the things that i asked God. finally, i'm having the time of my life.

but, it would be so much better if my friends were here. there were things that i could only disclose to them. but were busy wih our own lives. we chose different paths, we're on our own. i

yes, i really miss my friends. we've been together for 4 years, they're the reason why my college life became interesting. i am my own person now, but i won't have the confidence, if they didn't help me. it's different without them.

Wednesday, September 27, 2006

joyfully single

21 years old, not exactly young, not exactly old.(unattached for six years, hehe) one thing's for sure, i have lots of "growing up" to do. but at this age, i'm fully aware that i should have certain maturity. this is the time that i have to be responsible in the different roles that i have : a sister, a friend, an employee, and a child of God.
i am still adjusting in the new phase of my life where i'm regarded as an adult. i have to balance quirkiness and maturity/ work and play. this is the art that i want to learn. besides i consider myself as a student of life & learning. because i believe that learning does not stop in school. but now, i am in the stage, where theory and practice goes hand in hand.
so what does these have with my singleness?
i'll get things straight. my point is that being a single person means that we should utilize the gifts and talents that God bestowed on us. this is the time that we need to strive to become the man/woman that God wants us to be. this is my struggle as i follow his foot steps. as a single person, i want to serve God through the people that i work with.
unattached for six years? so what?! this is the time to get in touch with myself and with the things that i'm passionate about. instead of putting my life on hold, waiting for that person to come, i would get in touch with what i truly wanted. besides, how would others appreciate me if don't appreciate myself. i want to become to a secured individual before i meet that person.

joyfully single

21 years old, not exactly young, not exactly old.(unattached for six years, hehe) one thing's for sure, i have lots of "growing up" to do. but at this age, i'm fully aware that i should have certain maturity. this is the time that i have to be responsible in the different roles that i have : a sister, a friend, an employee, and a child of God.
i am still adjusting in the new phase of my life where i'm regarded as an adult. i have to balance quirkiness and maturity/ work and play. this is the art that i want to learn. besides i consider myself as a student of life & learning. because i believe that learning does not stop in school. but now, i am in the stage, where theory and practice goes hand in hand.
so what does these have with my singleness?
i'll get things straight. my point is that being a single person means that we should utilize the gifts and talents that God bestowed on us. this is the time that we need to strive to become the man/woman that God wants us to be. this is my struggle as i follow his foot steps. as a single person, i want to serve God through the people that i work with.
unattached for six years? so what?! this is the time to get in touch with myself and with the things that i'm passionate about. instead of putting my life on hold, waiting for that person to come, i would get in touch with what i truly wanted. besides, how would others appreciate me if don't appreciate myself. i want to become to a secured individual before i meet that person.

all in a day's work

" Collect your thoughts whenever you suffer a setback and ask yourself what good can be extracted from your misfortune. Look for the seed of good from every adversity."
-OG MANDINO

I had a rough day at work. I won't go through the details. I'll focus on my learnings instead.

I was not productive these past few days and I've realized that I need to have a sense of urgency & speed, without sacrificing the quality of my work. I am an idealistic person. I want an "immaculately flawless work". but i know that it will never happen. besides, were only human and we're bound to make mistakes.

My grandfather died last sunday,(he's one of my mentors) but i just found that out yesterday---in the officei had mixed emotions. i went to the ladie's room and cried. after that, i washed my face and composed myself. i want to hide my emotions as much as possible.i want to be professional. i know for a fact that 'babies' are not allowed in the workplace. i want to prove that i can carry myself. it would affect me in some ways, but it would not expiate me from not perfroming well. indeed, i am responible for my actions.

what took place today is a humbling experience because i had the chance to see the areas that i need to improve.in fact, my morale was boosted when my boss crticized my performance. ironic isn't it? because is should have had negative feelings. pero wala... because i want to take this in a very "classy" way. just because i have performed poorly doesn't mean that i would be like this forever. as they say, "the bad becomes the better & the better becomes the best."

Finally, I've realized that God allows certain incidents (like this) to happen because he desperately wants us to learn and he wants us to make wise decisions.
Because of my learnings today, I know that I', going to become a better version of myself.

Friday, September 01, 2006

rainbow



that's how i describe my life. well, i've learned that God lets you go through a lot before you achieve what you want in life. after 3 months of job hunting, i got hired last wednesday in one of the biggest company in the country. i never thought that i will work there. it's really impossibe, i thought. but GOD is really great, we really can't comprehend his mind. but one thing that i'm sure about, is that our dreams are important to him. he wants us to live our life to the fullest.

going back, it was quite a journey. i can finally say that i moved on with my life. the drama ramas of yesterday was not important anymore. all i have are the lessons that i've learned. i hope i won't do that again. at one point or another, i will make mistakes, but i won't do the same thing again. i'm starting a clean slate and i don't want my life to be haunted by my past.

i don't want my life to become complicated. all i need is my faith in God and a positive attitude, then, everything else will follow.

i'm a dreamer and i dream of big things. i can't have everything want at the same time, but i'll relish whatever i have right now. my life is not perfect, i have lots of struggles as i follow christ's foot steps. but, i've realized that God uses our experiences so that we can make wise decisions. that's how much he believes in us.
i want to be in the present, and i'll live my life one day at time