Regrets

This video made me think about my choices in life.

Learning my lesson

with Inang, 14 years ago

John Lennon once said that, " Life happens when you're busy making other plans". I agree with him because I often got so caught up with my life and it's complexities that I came to a point when I took for granted those people who care about me. Two months ago, my grandmother died. It was too soon because, I am confident that she can recover. Apparently, I was wrong. Everytime that we came for a visit, I can't look at her because I don't want her to be weak. She spent the last two decades of her life taking care of us. Out of all the other cousins that I have, I was so grateful that she chose us.

I am, in nature, a very inexpressive person. I guess, i only show my affection through 'tuksuhans' or by simply thanking the person. This was probably the reason why people thought that I was cold or heartless. In other words, they would misinterpret my actions.
When I began to work, I would always give something to her. But still, I know that at the back of my mind, they weren't enough. Now, I've realized that material things would never compensate for the time that we lost.

Yes, I am still healing and I admit that I would cry when something reminds me of her. However, I know that I have to be strong and composed because I'm not the only one who mourned for her loss. Besides, she's now in a better place. I can't do anything about the past and the best thing that I can do is to share the lessons she taught us. On her death, the lesson I've learned is to value the people who were always there for us because tomorrow is never promised.

Before I finish this entry, Let me share something that she taught me : To share your blessings and be compassionate to others without expecting anything in return.

of slam books and Q & A's

I was always a fan of Q & A's. way back in elementary, (i hate to admit it), but i was a 'sucker' for slambooks or autographs. i used to have one in grade six. i can't forget how i answer the questions there, i find it corny--sobra! but as i got older, i realized that it made you discover something about yourself. now, here i am again, answering another one..

1. what is your favorite word?
blessed

2. what is your least favorite word?
indifference

3. what turns you on?
honesty

4. what turns you off?
hypocrisy

5. what sound or noise do you love?
air

6. what sound or noise do you hate?
gunshot

7. what is your favorite curse word?
sh*t


8. what profession other than your own would you like to attempt?
film maker/stage actress


9. what profession would you not like to do?
doctor


10. if HEAVEN exists, what would you like to hear God say when you arrive at the Pearly Gates?
i'm glad you're home