Musings of a 'Princess' Wannabe

On writting my First Novel

I love attending weddings and listening about how the couples met because I never had a chance to write a love story of my own. I never had a happy ending in real life, that's what inspired me to write my first novel, " Prinsesa sa Tasa". It's a story about taking chances, moving on, and forgiveness. So far, it's a depiction of my life. Most parts of the story were based on my real life experiences. The story may be classified as a chic lit or a teeny bopper, but definitely not a rip off of some paper back romance. In other words, it's original. It took me five years to write this. Actually, PST started as a school paper for our Communications Class in College. We were asked to write our love story, using different tenses. I had fun doing it because it was an open-ended story. Just like in real life, I had my fair share of open-ended stories. I was graduating then, and I'm going through a lot of struggles that time from my family to my academic life. I went through an emotional turmoil. I underwent counselling and found out that I was depressed. Those times were hard because I felt that everything in my life fell apart. Then, it came to a point that I need to put back the pieces again because I still wanted to move on with my life.

What I did was I re-wrote that story that I made. Everytime I'm revising Prinsesa sa Tasa, I experience gamut of emotions since most parts, as I've said before were based on my real life experiences. But, after that, I felt relieved. Right now, I'm still revising it and I hope finish soon. I can't wait to have a happy ending, even it's only written in my blog.

On Real life

After graduation, I admit that I haven't found my place in the sun, yet. But, I don't want to go back to my previous emploments due to my traumatic experiences in the corporate world. At the age of 25, I don't want to admit that I'm going through a quarter life crisis, because, I'm not.
After I turned twenty five, I began to plan my personal and professional life. And, I can say that I'm more driven compared to by earlier years because, I'm making things happen a step at a time.

Yes, I'm fine with who I am even if I know that there were still things that I need to work on myself. I'm also in a stage where I'm not bothered whether I'm in a relationship or not, probably because I'm more assured with myself now than before. But, still, being a human as I am, I still hope for 'that person' to find me. I find it funny that my family, and friends wished for the same thing. Instead of sulking in despair, I make it to a point to enjoy my life while waiting.
I believe that I'm doing that.
Unexpected things happened. Recently, the guy that I liked in high school, who was rude to me, added me on face book. Then, he began to chat with me. This was very unusual because, we never had a decent conversation in the first place. Honestly, he was one of the reasons why I never looked forward to our high school reunion.Needless to say,I don't have good memories to look back. Anyway, I really wanted to avoid him that night. But actually, before, I was telling myself that when I had a chance to meet him, I would become maldita or b*tchy. Apparently, the opposite happened, I was actually nice to him. I felt that God is telling me to forgive that person and move on with my life. I believe, he is teaching me the lesson and the power of forgiveness. After talking to that guy, I was relieved and happy at the same time, that at least, he was, for a moment, became kind to me. After all these years, I never thought that it would happen. I'm glad it did. This experience taught me that I have to get rid of my hurtful past and start living the present. I believe that God is not interested on what I am before, but on what I'm going to be. Bo Sanchez, one of my favorite authors said that, "God wants to bless us with abundance and great relationships, we just need to open our hearts". I agree.