reality bites.

fyi: i haven't watched that movie yet, by march cguro. (irelevant 'to)

ok, let me get this straight: ito ang mga bagay na madalas naiicp ko

1 week na akong petix, ung nd natutkan ung dapat kong gawin. omigod! anong ginawa ko sa mga araw na lumipas?!pero syempre pasko, cno bang kj ang magpapaka-sipag sa mga panahong un noh?(naicp ko lang) damn it! mabuti na lang, it's never too late to get things done (i'm referring to school stuffs here. ayoko nang isa-isahin, tsk tsk tsk, delikado na.
bsta,k nd ako papasok nang nd ako handa bec of the ff reasons:
1) ayokong ma-okray ng prof sa labor
2) gusto ko nang mag-bagong buhay, this is my last chance to prove myself
3) at dahil last chance ko na, might as well, pagbutihan ko na, di ba?

may mga bagay na kelangan ko pag-ukulan ng pansin aside from my studies. syempre nanjan ang ibang importanteng bagay sa buhay: my personal relationship with god,my friends, family, etc. without them, i won't have the confidence to face my daily struggles. ( i hope that makes sense)

eto ang madalas sumagi sa icp ko: bkt nd ko magawang, ma-attach ulit, emotionally? (u know what i mean). i guess, hinanap ko muna ang sarili ko, bago ko hanapin c ALDO (codename for my ideal guy). now, it's been a while. but it's weird kac, whenever i told myself that i'm ready to take the risk to fall for a person, i would end up realizing that, that person belongs to someone else or after someone else. lagi na lang ganito.
but, i came to point where, i can't fool myself anymore. i have to deal with this. i have to start somewhere. i can't make a person like me. maybe, god wants me to have a "purposeful singleness". maybe, this is not the right time to settle down, as they say, the right thing at the wrong time is the wrong thing. there is so much more to see in my life. hard as it may seem, i would not put my life on hold, waitng for that someone. nako, nka-msira ulo ko! if i'm going to calculte the time i've wasted for that someone. bka naka 5 seasons na ako ng OC. so, syang!
I know i'm young, and i'm going to meet more people. i'll meet him cguro when i least expected it. kac, God knows that I love surprises, kaya nga gusto nya i-divert ung attention ko. para nd ako ma dissappoint di ba? well, kelangan ko cguro isang tabi ung mga ganyan, kelangan ko muna icp kung pa'no ako mkaka-tapos.

i don't mind if i'm the most attractive or smartest person in the class. bsta, all i know is i'm real, or i should say original because i don't want others to impose orders on me,and most of all i don't want to become a stereotype...