turning point

-graduation is fast approaching and i try to look back on some moments of my college life that i will never forget. i entered college life with an empty box waiting to get filled. i can't remember everything, but i will never forget how i've changed.-

ok here's a piece of some of the stories that i will treasure for a lifetime

it took place a month ago when we were doing our thesis. it was a week of physical, emotional, and stress. in other words, i became "tuliro" because i felt that i can't deliver well in our thesis and some of my personal relationships with other people were strained. i would leave at 8 am and go home at 10 pm. my parents, thought that i was just engrossed with school work, but they do not know that there were other things that has been killing me. two of my closest friends were not my thesismates, so i somehow find it hard to open to my groupmates. however, i was blessed that i've bonded with my thesismates because they made me closer to God. then, there were this vampires that drains me because they channel their miseries to me, i don't even know why.the weeks before our defense were really tough, but i'm glad i've survived. there was a week that i feel like quitting everything as in everything because i was really strained and felt that i can't do it anymore. i will never forget it because it was a turning point in my life. i am really down when extraordinary incidents took place. i can manage academic pressures but i'm not good in handling "emotional vampires".it's really pathetic that there are people who will be rude to you even if you're nice to them. i was victimized by these people anyway, that was the time when i felt that god reached out to me. he used the other people to save me. there was this person whom i thought, i would help him, but it's the other way around. he went to the classroom to get his stuff, then i approached him, i started the conversation about our professors, then i disclosed the things that has been bothering me. i can't help it, i cried. then he told me these , "angelica, mabuti kang tao, you are special, maraming nagmamahal sa'yo.kapit lang." they really struck me because, i've waited for someone to say these things to me, though i felt that my friends have been taking care of me. these lines sounds so melodramatic but these makes when you are in a verge of falling down. as human beings we need positive reinforcements to lift our spirits.
another took place was when i'm on my way home. i was alone then, i felt so anxious, i felt that those experiences piled up. when i used to think about them, they were, like forming a monster in my head, leaving me helpless. then, i suddenly ran inside the church, i decided to confess. i prayed to God "kahit po maiksi lang yung confession, as long as i felt your prescence, i'll be fine."
then i began to confess. i told him what i really felt. then, he asked me if he could talk to me after confession. i told him my experiences that piled up. after that, i felt much better. though, i haven't fully recovered, i felt empowered. i felt that my load became lighter. the moment i confessed, God talked talked to me. I will never forget that week, because i've realized that God was will never abandon me. he was my refuge, my pillar of strength. For non believers, i'm telling you God is real, you just have to believe. despite of those things that transpired, i don't have any reason to get angry with him. following Christ's footsteps is the most difficult thing to do. my previous experiences were my struggles because i chose to follow him. This is a story that worth sharing, a story that i feel proued to tell. i hope that my story will help others. Just P.U.S.H (Pray Until Something Happens) !