magpaka-totoo ka!

"magpaka-totoo ka!" di ba buyline to dati sa commercial ng sprite.... at ito ang bago kong motto sa sarili ko.

anyway,

i've learned that "knowing yourself and accepting it (both your weaknesses and strengths) is an art". i hate to admit it but i often find myself conforming to what other people says. i want to change it and i know it won't happen overnight. it's hard for me because, i've been battling with my insecurities for a long time. i used to think that i was not smart or good enough to be accepted by other people. in other words, i easily get intimidated.

but, two weeks ago, my family and i went on a 3 day vacation in Subic. then, something good came out of it. ..past wounds began to heal and i began to accept myself for who i really am. i started to unravel the things that i would be passionate about, but most of all i began to discover God's plan for me.

now the question is... how do i describe myself?
well, aside from being a college graduate and an apprentice in our family business, i consider myself as a student of life and learning. ang sarap matuto, lalo na when u finally decided to pick yourself up and get back in the race. from my past experiences, i was bruised, humbled, and i guess, smarter. i don't want to look back with resentment. i want to see what i've learned. i have to acknowledge my mistakes, so i won't do them again. because accdg. to dr. Phil mcgraw, "u can't change what u don't acknowledge."

we all have our quirks and shortcomings but what's important is that u don't allow your idiosyncracy to disrupt other people.
i was always considered as "peculiar" because of my interests. i used to consider it as an insecurity, but i was wrong. instead i should see it as an advantage. because my differences, makes me special. all of us have our own bizaare behaviors, i was just more upfront about it, kaya madali akong mapuna.

- - - ganito kac ako: i'm a sucker for pinoy flicks, kahit drama eh, tinatawanan ko, i love classics, vintage stuffs. mas natutuwa ako makinig sa new wave music, kahit marami akong latest songs na gusto. bhira ako sumunod sa latest shows. when i cook, i experiment stuffs, wla akong specific na dish na sinusunod. ung journal ko and my other personal stuffs gusto ko handmade.at medyo maligalig ako kapag natutuwa ako ng sobra - - -

medyo kakaiba di ba?

now i have come to realize that, i have to manage my quirks. i've accepted them. as long as i put it in a socially acceptable manner without compromising myself to other people's expectations. ok na un. i can't please everybody. if a person can't accept me for who i really am it's his problem, non me ne frege.



* for those who love my past entries, thank you so much!!!