I hate it when something would try to ruin my day. Earlier this morning,the van that I was riding was stopped by a police officer. I was in a hurry because I haven’t eaten my breakfast. Whenever I’m hungry, I tend to become temperamental and impatient. I was inside the van waiting for the driver to go back. After conversing with the police, the driver told me, “Miss, sandali lang, may ina-ayos lang kami.” I nodded and replied, “ Matagal pa ba yan? Nagmamadali na ako.” Then, I gave him a stern look. Ten minutes have passed and we’re still there. I was getting pissed so I went out of the van and asked the policemen, “Sir, matagal pa ba?” “Ma’am, iimpound na yung van eh, yung driver walang lisensya.” The man replied. Then, I just left. I walked and passed on a nearby McDonald’s chain and bought breakfast. I was eating while walking. The good thing about it is that I’m only few blocks away from the office. Then, I’m only three minutes late.
I know that this is not exactly my fault but I’ve learned something from this incident. I realized that I should not loose my temper easily, because kanina, I feel like ‘exploding’. Well, at least, I’ve prevented myself from doing so. But if I yelled at the people around me, they might think that I’m deranged. I can’t whine or cry about the situation. Instead, I should think of solution.
At this point I should have maturity, I must know how to handle this kind of situation. It’s true that we can’t control the circumstance around us, but we can choose our response. It is a fact that life consists of unending choices and continuous problem solving.
Tuesday, March 20, 2007
Thursday, March 15, 2007
I'm just a newbie at work but i have learned a lot...and i know that i need to learn more because life itself is a never ending study...
I've realized that life is not about fancies. When I was a student, everything that we do is a simulation of the real world. In other words,child's play. But when started working, everyhting was different. Indeed, you're faced with the reality of life, the reality that you can't have your way all the time and that you can't rely on theory all the time. I'm a bookish person and i sometimes reach the point that i base my way thinking on what i've read.."to kac ung nabasa ko"... it's absrud.
during my college years, i was filled insecurities and my perception was filtered by past experiences. i always look down on myself because i'm surrounded with achievers. i thought that i don't have anything to be proud of...because all those time, i consider myself as (unconsciously) as a second rate version of someoneelse. to make things worse, i would always get bothered by trivial things..i spend most of my time tinkering.
after few months of working, i've realized that it was just a wrong way to live my life...looking back, what's been hindering me from reaching my full potential is not becuase of my capacity, it's my self esteem. if i have just believed in myself that i can make it happen, i may have become an academic achiever. sayang.
But, i can't do anything about it, past is past. all i have is the present and i don't want to live my life the same way as before. .. I've realized that i'm a dreamer pala, that if i just believe in myself, i can make great things happen.
People can say what they have to say, but they can't stop me from reaching my goals. That's why I'm doing my best to learn as much i can, so that i would be prepared for everything that life has to offer. GOD has entrusted me a life that solely mine..I won't live it for someone else..
I've realized that life is not about fancies. When I was a student, everything that we do is a simulation of the real world. In other words,child's play. But when started working, everyhting was different. Indeed, you're faced with the reality of life, the reality that you can't have your way all the time and that you can't rely on theory all the time. I'm a bookish person and i sometimes reach the point that i base my way thinking on what i've read.."to kac ung nabasa ko"... it's absrud.
during my college years, i was filled insecurities and my perception was filtered by past experiences. i always look down on myself because i'm surrounded with achievers. i thought that i don't have anything to be proud of...because all those time, i consider myself as (unconsciously) as a second rate version of someoneelse. to make things worse, i would always get bothered by trivial things..i spend most of my time tinkering.
after few months of working, i've realized that it was just a wrong way to live my life...looking back, what's been hindering me from reaching my full potential is not becuase of my capacity, it's my self esteem. if i have just believed in myself that i can make it happen, i may have become an academic achiever. sayang.
But, i can't do anything about it, past is past. all i have is the present and i don't want to live my life the same way as before. .. I've realized that i'm a dreamer pala, that if i just believe in myself, i can make great things happen.
People can say what they have to say, but they can't stop me from reaching my goals. That's why I'm doing my best to learn as much i can, so that i would be prepared for everything that life has to offer. GOD has entrusted me a life that solely mine..I won't live it for someone else..
Saturday, March 03, 2007
ay pucha, magsasaya ako!
Heinakuh! why am i wasting my time, tinkering?! absurd, isnt it? so eto na talaga. i'll move on with my life. period. tama na ang drama
wake up..reality bites 2
uhm.. i can't think of any title that would best fit this entry. .. with that i apologize
last night before i left the office, i checked my multiply account, then, i got the chance to see his video. he sang for someone..and it's not for me. from that moment, i realized that i am a closed chapter in his life. before he left, we didn't have the chance to say goodbye. .. i would never realize that i would come to this point, that i could say to myself that i miss him. he's one of the most genuine persons i've ever known. he's worth keeping. i miss the friendship.. even if i have lots of friends, he will never be replaced. indeed, what is lost,is lost. i felt that i was never been fair to him. i can't do anything about it. i know, i'm sorry... i felt so guilty that i've hurt someone else's feelings because of the careless words that i've said.
after watching the video, i can't help but cry. i felt guilty... naghihinayang ako sa friendship(nothing more). but then, i realized, i have to let go. i don't need to be harsh on myself. i can't do anything about the past. that's why i'm focusing on the present. that's why after work, i went out last night. it so happened that some of my officemates is having their despedida party for these two australian trainers. i enjoyed the night, that i almost forget the feeling that i had. to make things even better, these two australian trainers thanked me for my contributions in the training program. as a training assistant, i was in charge of the logistics, which means that, i'm responsible for the manuals. they told me that, i did a great job. i was so glad to hear that.
i was really thankful that God lifted me up. he is there for me. imagine, i was down when i left the office, but after that , my morale was boosted. it's a good thing that i went out. naka-tulong sobra. so much for my past, i would just live for today. i would focus on the things things that God has in store for me. i actually have a choice, whether, to dwell on my past or move on. i chose the latter because i know that it is the right thing to do. i know that i made things that i would, regret later on. but i believe that no matter what happened in my past, he would still make my paths straight... Besides, God always bring people that would make feel valued.
one person lost, and i've learned my lesson. i thankful that these things happened, beacuse these things would make me become a better person...or the person that God wants me to be.
i don't know how this person would react if he would read this entry. basta, ako, i won't pretend. nasabi ko ung dapat masabi. i won't expect anything in return. whatever or whoever makes him happy. i'm also happy for him.
-this would be my first and last entry for this person-
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last night before i left the office, i checked my multiply account, then, i got the chance to see his video. he sang for someone..and it's not for me. from that moment, i realized that i am a closed chapter in his life. before he left, we didn't have the chance to say goodbye. .. i would never realize that i would come to this point, that i could say to myself that i miss him. he's one of the most genuine persons i've ever known. he's worth keeping. i miss the friendship.. even if i have lots of friends, he will never be replaced. indeed, what is lost,is lost. i felt that i was never been fair to him. i can't do anything about it. i know, i'm sorry... i felt so guilty that i've hurt someone else's feelings because of the careless words that i've said.
after watching the video, i can't help but cry. i felt guilty... naghihinayang ako sa friendship(nothing more). but then, i realized, i have to let go. i don't need to be harsh on myself. i can't do anything about the past. that's why i'm focusing on the present. that's why after work, i went out last night. it so happened that some of my officemates is having their despedida party for these two australian trainers. i enjoyed the night, that i almost forget the feeling that i had. to make things even better, these two australian trainers thanked me for my contributions in the training program. as a training assistant, i was in charge of the logistics, which means that, i'm responsible for the manuals. they told me that, i did a great job. i was so glad to hear that.
i was really thankful that God lifted me up. he is there for me. imagine, i was down when i left the office, but after that , my morale was boosted. it's a good thing that i went out. naka-tulong sobra. so much for my past, i would just live for today. i would focus on the things things that God has in store for me. i actually have a choice, whether, to dwell on my past or move on. i chose the latter because i know that it is the right thing to do. i know that i made things that i would, regret later on. but i believe that no matter what happened in my past, he would still make my paths straight... Besides, God always bring people that would make feel valued.
one person lost, and i've learned my lesson. i thankful that these things happened, beacuse these things would make me become a better person...or the person that God wants me to be.
i don't know how this person would react if he would read this entry. basta, ako, i won't pretend. nasabi ko ung dapat masabi. i won't expect anything in return. whatever or whoever makes him happy. i'm also happy for him.
-this would be my first and last entry for this person-
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