I'm just a newbie at work but i have learned a lot...and i know that i need to learn more because life itself is a never ending study...

I've realized that life is not about fancies. When I was a student, everything that we do is a simulation of the real world. In other words,child's play. But when started working, everyhting was different. Indeed, you're faced with the reality of life, the reality that you can't have your way all the time and that you can't rely on theory all the time. I'm a bookish person and i sometimes reach the point that i base my way thinking on what i've read.."to kac ung nabasa ko"... it's absrud.

during my college years, i was filled insecurities and my perception was filtered by past experiences. i always look down on myself because i'm surrounded with achievers. i thought that i don't have anything to be proud of...because all those time, i consider myself as (unconsciously) as a second rate version of someoneelse. to make things worse, i would always get bothered by trivial things..i spend most of my time tinkering.

after few months of working, i've realized that it was just a wrong way to live my life...looking back, what's been hindering me from reaching my full potential is not becuase of my capacity, it's my self esteem. if i have just believed in myself that i can make it happen, i may have become an academic achiever. sayang.

But, i can't do anything about it, past is past. all i have is the present and i don't want to live my life the same way as before. .. I've realized that i'm a dreamer pala, that if i just believe in myself, i can make great things happen.

People can say what they have to say, but they can't stop me from reaching my goals. That's why I'm doing my best to learn as much i can, so that i would be prepared for everything that life has to offer. GOD has entrusted me a life that solely mine..I won't live it for someone else..