Dadating din ang araw mo

Just when I thought that I've recovered from the past, a certain encounter would prove me that I'm wrong.

I thought that I've gotten over it, I mean the incident took place two years ago. But when we crossed paths again, I cringed. I suddenly remember how I felt that day when he humiliated me in front of a crowd.

I know that I should not make the first move, but I 'm just being friendly.

As soon as I began to approach him, I tried to strike a conversation. Being disinterested or annoyed by my presence, he flashed his phone in front of my face and texted. A few minutes later, he left me and said "Ghel, iwan muna kita ha, may nakalimutan kasi ako sa bahay eh." I just nodded. Those people at the back, shot me with dagger looks because, pina-singit lang ako dun.

At that moment, I felt that I was a JOKE, a big one. Because I allowed myself to be victimized by a jerk. That's the time when I began to experience the fear of getting emotionally attached with someone. I hate the feeling of being played with someone. I've had similar experiences, but this one hit me big time. Before, I tried to forgave that person and move on. But, this time, I'm really tired.

Sometimes, i just wanted to say things in front of his face. Gusto ko siyang murahin. But I really can't because it's been a long time. He might have forgotten about it already. Besides, most guys are insensitive and he's not an exemption. The best thing that I can do is that I can blog about and let other people know how horrible he was.

Honestly speaking, I find it hard to trust most of the guys that I've met.(I know it's weird). I would often doubt a person's intention towards me( even from someone that I like). One thing I've learned about this experience is that I should never let myself fall for a jerk that could make me blush.


For this person, you know who you are.... Dadating din ang araw mo.