wake up.. reality bites

it's really hard to live a lie. what happened yesterday is like getting hit by a fourteen-wheeler truck. i've realized that even if people say that you're great, special and all that, there would still be those who would make you feel stupid. i can't understand why, it' s unfair. nobody deserves to be treated that way. as far as i'm concerned, i'm not doing anything that would made him treat me that way. i can't talk to him, i can't face him right now. i don't know how to react, so i need some space to figure things out... i may feel down right now, but tommorrow, i'll bounce back.

kanina

i was about to ride an fx..when i saw the "pen owner"... baba na sana ako...

kaso lang....

mahaba ang pila.... (exodus, pare)

may 2 options ako:

a) bumaba ako at sumabay sa kanya, yun nga lang, male-late ako

b)nd bumaba at nd sya makasabay,pero makakapasok ako on time

pinili ko ang letter b...

fx moment sana noh?

pero trabaho muna...

asteeg kahapon!

i can't put it into words, bsta, masaya ako, tapos. idadaan ko na lang sa video..

malapit na ang christmas

i really enjoy this video, as in

Ice Breaker

Q& A ulit

I love answering hotsheets, probably because i don't have time to publish long entries, unlike before. (i got this from bianca)

1.What is it about you that people don't reallynotice?
- i'm really tough inside.


2. What do people commonly mistake you for?--a high school student

3. Are you insecure?-- all of us has insecurities.

4. Do you think you're attractive? i don't know

5. Do you find it easy to trust people?-- no

6. Do you have a really big secret?--- yes

7. If yes, how many people have you told about it?--- none

8. How are you when you get mad?--- it depends on the situation

9. What do you do when you're bored?--- eat.
10. Do you enjoy doing nothing?-- yes.

11. Are you comfortable in being alone?-- yes

12. Do you think watching the sunset or the stars is fun?-- yes, it's the perfect moment to get in touch with myself
13. Do you like the rain?-- yes,yes,yes.
14. What can you say about poetry?-- vague thoughts expressed
15. Are you a phone person?-- not really.
16. Do you smoke weed?-- no
17. What song best describes how youfeel?-- everybody wanst you by josh kelley
18. What impossible thing do you want to do right now?-- to be in two places at the same time
19. What is missing in your life right this moment?-- ju and chery
20. aRe you happy with the way thingsare going in your lovelife?--i don't have one, but i enjoy being single
21. Are you sure?-- yes!)22. Where were you today?-- office, unwinding after a long day's work
23. What did you do today?-- encode, print labels, and the list goes on

24. Who were you with today?-- with my boss.
25. What are you planning to do now?-- go home and sleep.

mrt moment

emotions are not reliable. really. last monday, i guess, i lied to myself. i'm down and i really wanted to talk to someone else. i had this feeling that i don't want to go home early. basta gusto ko na lang ung matutulog ako.

i was on my way to powerbooks when i saw a 'familiar face'. nagkasabay kami sa mrt. to make the long story short, i had a great conversation with him. this moment reminded me of the movie , "Before Sunset". it's just about shared interest, nothing serious about it. but, i feel better. ay ewan.


*last

ay ewan

i can't think of any title, so eto na lang....

ngaun ko lang ata na-realize kung ano ang ibig sabihin ng salitang "trabaho". hindi kac ako na-bakante, these past few days.

this is it, i have to be on my own, as in kinakailangan kung gumawa ng diskarte sa lahat ng bagay (hindi lang sa work, sa iba pa, basta, un na un). recently, nabigla ako sa mga nangyari: 1) my grandfather died 2) nlaman ko na may gf pala ung friend ko. ..nd ko naman alam eh. hehe. 3) bnigyan ako ng mag responisbilities na dapat kuya ko ang gumagawa..pathetic 4) etong person from the past, gusto na naman atang bumalik sa eksena..sus!

ung #1 , tanggap ko na. na-express ko na ung emotion na kailangan. i'm happy for him because he's making music in heaven. number 2, masaya ako dahil dun sa "keyboard moment". pero nagulat ako nung nkta ko ung gf nya. tinukso kac cla nung mga pipol.nd pala joke un, "true" pala .mabuti na lang hindi kami ang ginawang pair. ok lang un, sayang ang friendship. grabe number 3, i have to deal with it. wla akong, magagawa, it's part of my responisbility as a daughter. damn! number 4, he's not the type of person that i really want . i gave him so many chance before, pero,tama na ang kalokohan! i moved on. ---- i made a huge mistake in my life, i should've not wasted my time with a person who doesn't give a damn about me. i have to face it, i don't deserve the treatment that he gave to me before. tapos, ngaun, babawi?! It's his loss. i'd rather spend time with other people than make a stupid move again. non me ne frege.

so un ang gustong sabihin....

friends: how much i miss them

i've realized that i'm living the kind of life that i truly wanted : i have a job, i'm serving in a community, and i finally have the time to help my family. these are the things that i asked God. finally, i'm having the time of my life.

but, it would be so much better if my friends were here. there were things that i could only disclose to them. but were busy wih our own lives. we chose different paths, we're on our own. i

yes, i really miss my friends. we've been together for 4 years, they're the reason why my college life became interesting. i am my own person now, but i won't have the confidence, if they didn't help me. it's different without them.

joyfully single

21 years old, not exactly young, not exactly old.(unattached for six years, hehe) one thing's for sure, i have lots of "growing up" to do. but at this age, i'm fully aware that i should have certain maturity. this is the time that i have to be responsible in the different roles that i have : a sister, a friend, an employee, and a child of God.
i am still adjusting in the new phase of my life where i'm regarded as an adult. i have to balance quirkiness and maturity/ work and play. this is the art that i want to learn. besides i consider myself as a student of life & learning. because i believe that learning does not stop in school. but now, i am in the stage, where theory and practice goes hand in hand.
so what does these have with my singleness?
i'll get things straight. my point is that being a single person means that we should utilize the gifts and talents that God bestowed on us. this is the time that we need to strive to become the man/woman that God wants us to be. this is my struggle as i follow his foot steps. as a single person, i want to serve God through the people that i work with.
unattached for six years? so what?! this is the time to get in touch with myself and with the things that i'm passionate about. instead of putting my life on hold, waiting for that person to come, i would get in touch with what i truly wanted. besides, how would others appreciate me if don't appreciate myself. i want to become to a secured individual before i meet that person.

joyfully single

21 years old, not exactly young, not exactly old.(unattached for six years, hehe) one thing's for sure, i have lots of "growing up" to do. but at this age, i'm fully aware that i should have certain maturity. this is the time that i have to be responsible in the different roles that i have : a sister, a friend, an employee, and a child of God.
i am still adjusting in the new phase of my life where i'm regarded as an adult. i have to balance quirkiness and maturity/ work and play. this is the art that i want to learn. besides i consider myself as a student of life & learning. because i believe that learning does not stop in school. but now, i am in the stage, where theory and practice goes hand in hand.
so what does these have with my singleness?
i'll get things straight. my point is that being a single person means that we should utilize the gifts and talents that God bestowed on us. this is the time that we need to strive to become the man/woman that God wants us to be. this is my struggle as i follow his foot steps. as a single person, i want to serve God through the people that i work with.
unattached for six years? so what?! this is the time to get in touch with myself and with the things that i'm passionate about. instead of putting my life on hold, waiting for that person to come, i would get in touch with what i truly wanted. besides, how would others appreciate me if don't appreciate myself. i want to become to a secured individual before i meet that person.

all in a day's work

" Collect your thoughts whenever you suffer a setback and ask yourself what good can be extracted from your misfortune. Look for the seed of good from every adversity."
-OG MANDINO

I had a rough day at work. I won't go through the details. I'll focus on my learnings instead.

I was not productive these past few days and I've realized that I need to have a sense of urgency & speed, without sacrificing the quality of my work. I am an idealistic person. I want an "immaculately flawless work". but i know that it will never happen. besides, were only human and we're bound to make mistakes.

My grandfather died last sunday,(he's one of my mentors) but i just found that out yesterday---in the officei had mixed emotions. i went to the ladie's room and cried. after that, i washed my face and composed myself. i want to hide my emotions as much as possible.i want to be professional. i know for a fact that 'babies' are not allowed in the workplace. i want to prove that i can carry myself. it would affect me in some ways, but it would not expiate me from not perfroming well. indeed, i am responible for my actions.

what took place today is a humbling experience because i had the chance to see the areas that i need to improve.in fact, my morale was boosted when my boss crticized my performance. ironic isn't it? because is should have had negative feelings. pero wala... because i want to take this in a very "classy" way. just because i have performed poorly doesn't mean that i would be like this forever. as they say, "the bad becomes the better & the better becomes the best."

Finally, I've realized that God allows certain incidents (like this) to happen because he desperately wants us to learn and he wants us to make wise decisions.
Because of my learnings today, I know that I', going to become a better version of myself.

rainbow

that's how i describe my life. well, i've learned that God lets you go through a lot before you achieve what you want in life. after 3 months of job hunting, i got hired last wednesday in one of the biggest company in the country. i never thought that i will work there. it's really impossibe, i thought. but GOD is really great, we really can't comprehend his mind. but one thing that i'm sure about, is that our dreams are important to him. he wants us to live our life to the fullest.

going back, it was quite a journey. i can finally say that i moved on with my life. the drama ramas of yesterday was not important anymore. all i have are the lessons that i've learned. i hope i won't do that again. at one point or another, i will make mistakes, but i won't do the same thing again. i'm starting a clean slate and i don't want my life to be haunted by my past.

i don't want my life to become complicated. all i need is my faith in God and a positive attitude, then, everything else will follow.

i'm a dreamer and i dream of big things. i can't have everything want at the same time, but i'll relish whatever i have right now. my life is not perfect, i have lots of struggles as i follow christ's foot steps. but, i've realized that God uses our experiences so that we can make wise decisions. that's how much he believes in us.
i want to be in the present, and i'll live my life one day at time

isn't he cute

i was never a fan of mexican novelas but this video caught my attention. syempre gael is here and would you believe he was just 14 in this clip? --para lang syang 10. hehe

one traumatic day

sometimes you've got to know yourself when you're faced with an unlikely situation. that's when you don't have your friends or family around to protect you.
yesterday, my mom and i filed a complaint against an employee from prudential life because of harassment. while wating for the contact person in the reception room, i read a novel. then, this guy (a jason of PBB look-alike) approached me. "miss anu yang binabasa mo" his tone was like that of kuya boji of batibot, and i was really irritated. "a novel of isabel allende" i replied coldly. sa isip isip ko lang, "hello?! hindi pre school or retarded ung kausap ko mo noh!". I moved away from him, but the more i moved away, the more he leaned his face towards my cheek. ung halos halikan ako. yeah, i almost freaked out. ..my mom didn't do anything kac she's tested me on how would i react. super iwas na talaga ako, sumisiksik na ako sa mom ko pero ang kulit pa rin nya. then, timing naman na dumating na ung contact person namin.

akala ko tapos na, then he enterd the scene again when i was left alone in the table kac may tinatawagan ung mom ko and she was accompanied by the contact person. he was aking questions like, my degree, etc. i didn't answer his questions because he's really acting rude na. sa inis ko, i just told him "alam mo, may kamukha ka.." "oo c jason, maraming nagsasabi" he replied with an annoyed look. then bumalik ung mom ko and the contact person. akala ko mahihiya na sya, pero sabat pa rin sya ng sabat. epal tlaga! to make things worse, bigla syang bumanat sa akin " umusog ka jan, uupo ko!" i gave him an angry stare, that i would almost slap his face. ung gusto nyang isiksik ung sarili nya sa inuupuan ako. then his companion, told him, "pare, may upuan dito" tapos talak sya ng talak hanggang sa wala nang nkknig sa kanya. F*ck tlga! i wish he's dead.when we left that company i was really infuriated. when we were in the elevator i told my mom " u shouldv'e been smarter, dapat alert ako, pero i'm not feeling well today kaya medyo slow ako. i want to go back there and beat that guy!" pinigil lang ako ng mom ko. she told me that we would do something about that tommorow.

on the next day my mom talked to the manager and told him what happened. then when my mom requested to talk to vincent papa (yes, that's the guy), he refused to talk to us. then the manager told us that she would call us back regarding on the course of action that they will do. after three hours, the manager called back. She asked me to relay again what really happened. then, she apologized first then told me the course of action that they will do. according to the manager, the guy will be suspended for 15 days. she also explained to me that he was actually the quiet type. they were shocked when they found out that he dispalyed a bizaare behavior. it was the first time daw na nangyari yun. she added that, that guy lost his father a week ago. pero i told the manager to tell the guys that at his age he must have certain maurity, in sense that he should detach his personal issues from his professional life. in fact, his father's death could not justify what he did to me.

i've learned my lesson. when i'm faced with a similar situation, i know what to do. * u're dead!

quiz quizan

Can you name 21 people you can think of right off the top of your head? Dont read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 21 people.

Ready, Start!

1. Gael Garcia Bernal aka Padre Amaro
2. Sitti
3. faith
4. tseri
5. julie
6. ode
7. jun
8. dar
9. peter
10. iking
11. telle
12. bianx
13. nicloe
14. caroline
15. mam ellar
16. mam chrisma
17. vanjo
18. cocoy
19. mike abrera
20. renz
21. ALDO

THE QUESTIONS:

1. How did you meet 14?
C caroline, classmaate kami nung grade 5, naging close kami since then
2. What would you do if you never met 6?
wla akong makikilalang beatles fanatic; she's such a wonderful person
3. What would you do if 20 and 9 dated?
nd pwede, parehas na boys
4.Did you ever like 5?
of course! best friend ko yan sa college eh
5. Would 4 and 12 make a good couple?
nd pwede parehas na girls
6. Describe 8.
c dar, matalino, goth, eccentric, asteeg!

7. Do you think 13 is attractive?
c nicole, syempre. may brains pa yan! san ka pa!

8.Tell me something about 17.
c vanjo kasundo ko sa chicken balat & other lamang loob. at syempre ung Apparition

9. Do you know any of 4's family members?
c ju, yes

10. What's 21's favorite color?
no idea

11. What would you do if 18 confessed he/she likes you?
haha, 'funny', nd ako maniniwala, kac he's joking 4 sure

12. what language does 20 speak?
English, Tagalog,at trying hard mag spanish .

13. Who is 9 going out with?
no idea
14. What year is 16 in?
mam chrisma is 34 yrs old

15. When's the last time you talked to 13?
k nicole, 2 months ago

16. What is 2's favorite band?
cguro ung sitti kac vocalist sya nun eh
17. Would you ever date 7?
definitely no, may ode na xia eh

18. Would you ever date 12?
no c bianx un
19. Is 15 single?
mam ellar is married

20. What is 19's last name?
abrera

21. Would you ever want to be in a serious relationship with 11?
c telle, nd pwede gurl kami parehans

22. What school does 3 go to?
grad n ac faith

23. Where does 15 live?
sa manila daw

24. What's your favorite thing about 10?
serious when working, hilarious pag break time

25. Have you seen number 1 naked?
c Gael, nd pa. sana (ay hehe, bad! joke lang!)

el crimen del padre amaro

i would definitely reccomend this movie because the story was realistic. It was about a recently ordained priest who fell in love with a young girl who serves in the parish. At first, he was repressing her feelings for this girl, but in the long run, allowed lust to rule theirselves.Their lives were shattered afterwards.(He's very gorgeous and decent. You would really think that he's pure and all that. Apparently, he's not).

I suddenly remembered what sir atalia taught us in second year, that when you act in contrary of your belief, it means 3 things: a) mali ka, b)mali ang pinaniniwalaan mo,or c)mali parehas . This movie is really an eye opener to me, because it reminds me of the reality we are all vulnerable to temptations. But, it's up to us if we would give in or not. One of my struggles in life as a christian is purity. Ang hirap, talaga. Pero I think mas mahirap ung situation ng mga priests and nuns, because they always have to portray an image that they are pure and holy. But, they're only human and not saints. When I talked to this priest in school and I asked him to pray for our thesis, he replied," Kami din, ipagdasal nyo, mas kailangan namin un." Indeed, he's right.

Then, na realize ko, ok pa palang maging ordinaryong tao. I'm still blessed because I don't live in a constricted universe.

I can't deny the fact that I found Gael (gal) Garcia Bernal aka Padre Amaro attractive. Sana ganun c ALDO (cla tseri lang ang nkaka-alam nun), ung mukha ha! When I've watched the steamy scenes,(kahit saan kac nagla-lampungan, na parang walang bukas!) nandiri ako sa character nya! Kung ano kac ung ikina-gwapo nya, un ung ipinangit ng ugali nya. wag naman sana ganun, di ba?!

kahapon

hindi ko alam kung anong dapat title ng entry ko na 'to. i'll just post it anyway.

i can't forget how got totally exhausted yesterday. after waiting for almost 3 hrs, my interview sucked. na-mental block kac ako. i didn't do well in the interview. ilang beses na akong nai-iinterview, parang kailangan ko na talagang matuto. mahirap mang sabihin, i'll just charge it to experience.

then bigla kong naicp ung quote ko na narinig ko sa 98.7 "sometimes, when u didn't get what u want, it's actually a stroke of luck."

well, i think it's a blessing in disguise. no matter how crappy i feel today. i'll be honest with myself and try to look on the positive side of every adversities that i encounter.

freakin' hilarious

wla ako sa mood mag lagay ng mga post kaya videos ang 3p ko ngaun. anyway. i've seen this video before from cofibean's post. pagkatapos nun tawa ako ang tawa. tsk tsk kawawang reporter. :(

aliw na video

last summer, i began to like jazz music, especially the band, sitti. nakak-relax talaga.

My life in 5 days: Part three

BAGUIO

1. Baguio, after 16 yrs

I was five years old when I last visited Baguio. That was the time before the earthquake took place. When I came back, Baguio City changed a lot. It was more commercialized than before. When we entered the City, parang Recto. Anyway, it's a good thing that we stayed in an inn far from the "hustle bustle" of the city. Iggy's Inn was a good place to stay. I like the interior, especially the paintings, it's like the "DragonflyInn" (Gilmore Girls).

2. Old house

I took a picture of an old, unkempt house in front of the Inn. It seems that it has seen "better days". Kac, I saw a vintage car in the garage, parang fifties. I really wanted to go inside, gusto ko kac maka-pasok sa mga lumang bahay, well, I know it's weird, but i really love adventures! Honestly speaking, that house attracted me because I felt like I lived in the fifties.-->just a thought!

3. AFS Scholars

on my last night, i got a chance to hang out with the AFS scholars from Thailand, Panama, Belgium, Egypt, Belgium, & Chile. It seemed that they looked like my age, they're really tall! They even thought that I was younger than them. (liit ko kac eh). Kidding aside these kids were really intelligent. I find them interesting, because they were highly opinionated. I liked the way they expressed their opinions. Well,I really like people who speaks their mind because it's really challenging. Interacting with them, had expanded my horizons. I've realized that not all my prejudices (about other culture) were right. Because, I got intimidated by these kids at first,because I thougt that they were "racists". But, i was wrong, they're actually nice people. I've learned that you just have to be confident, especially when interacting with people from different nationalities/cultures.And of course, humor will serve you well.

*try to find Nick Carter's look alike on the second picture (unfortunately, he's gay and he's proud of it)

My life in 5 days : Part two

SAGADA

1. St. Mary the Virgin Parish

-this Church is very simple, yet, a reminiscent of the medieval times.That's what makes the church charming. When I prayed inside, I felt like I was in a time warp, parang nasa time ako ni Robin Hood. hehe. If you're going to Sagada, take a visit on this church. I think, this place is ideal for religious people or those who want to make a devotion.

2. St. Joseph's Inn

- Just a few meters away from the SMV parish. The ambience was very homey. Ang cute ng mga cottages, parang Pleasantville.

* I wasn't able to see the tribes that Mam Pepin was talking about,(ung namumugot ng ulo). Nobody talks about them. They're mysterious.

*The natives has distinct features. They look like Ifugao dolls because they have round and lovely pair of eyes.

*I was amazed when I saw the mothers carrying their children at their back with cloth. Unfortunately, I wasn't able to take a picture of them, kumakain kac ako nun eh, hehe.

My life in 5 days :Part one

BANAWE

1) Las Vegas Restaurant and Lounge

- We ate in this restaurant during our 3- day stay in Banawe. The food was great and the service was excellent. The food tastes different , especially the sinigang, iba kac ung pampa-asim nila eh. The service was personalized, because the children of the owner were the ones who served the food to us. Each member has his/her own share in the business. The mother cooks, the children serves the food, and the best part of it, the father serenades us with country songs. Their children were also talented. I took a shot on the eldest son while he was playing "narda". I would definitely recommend this place, especially for those who are tight on budget. For as low as 70 pesos, you already have a meal. The lodging costs 150 pesos----- affordable di ba? This place is a great place to hangout in Banawe.ASTIG!

2) Banawe View Inn

-We stayed here for three days. This is more expensive than Las Vegas, because lodging itself costs 600 pesos. But, it's worth it because the place is neat. The place was owned by Mr & Mrs. Luglog. FYI: Mrs. Luglog was the great grand daughter of late Ottley Beyer, the anthtopologist who studied the Ifugao culture. He later on married an Ifugao native. aside from the breath taking view of the rice terraces, i also liked the museum. Learning their culture was the most interesting part of my trip. Tignan nyo ung chess, ang cute!

3) Dep ed Lagawe

-on the second day, we went to Lagawe to conduct an AFS orientation for inbound and outbound students and parents.To make the long story short, I was asked to assist with the orientation. I had the chance to meet some AFS scholars. Aside from Emelia, I also met Junia, an Ifugao native. Both of them returned last year after spending eleven months in the United States.

4) Rice Terraces

-This was the highlight of my trip. If I would describe the rice terraces in one word, that would be: WONDERFUL!

magpaka-totoo ka!

"magpaka-totoo ka!" di ba buyline to dati sa commercial ng sprite.... at ito ang bago kong motto sa sarili ko.

anyway,

i've learned that "knowing yourself and accepting it (both your weaknesses and strengths) is an art". i hate to admit it but i often find myself conforming to what other people says. i want to change it and i know it won't happen overnight. it's hard for me because, i've been battling with my insecurities for a long time. i used to think that i was not smart or good enough to be accepted by other people. in other words, i easily get intimidated.

but, two weeks ago, my family and i went on a 3 day vacation in Subic. then, something good came out of it. ..past wounds began to heal and i began to accept myself for who i really am. i started to unravel the things that i would be passionate about, but most of all i began to discover God's plan for me.

now the question is... how do i describe myself?
well, aside from being a college graduate and an apprentice in our family business, i consider myself as a student of life and learning. ang sarap matuto, lalo na when u finally decided to pick yourself up and get back in the race. from my past experiences, i was bruised, humbled, and i guess, smarter. i don't want to look back with resentment. i want to see what i've learned. i have to acknowledge my mistakes, so i won't do them again. because accdg. to dr. Phil mcgraw, "u can't change what u don't acknowledge."

we all have our quirks and shortcomings but what's important is that u don't allow your idiosyncracy to disrupt other people.
i was always considered as "peculiar" because of my interests. i used to consider it as an insecurity, but i was wrong. instead i should see it as an advantage. because my differences, makes me special. all of us have our own bizaare behaviors, i was just more upfront about it, kaya madali akong mapuna.

- - - ganito kac ako: i'm a sucker for pinoy flicks, kahit drama eh, tinatawanan ko, i love classics, vintage stuffs. mas natutuwa ako makinig sa new wave music, kahit marami akong latest songs na gusto. bhira ako sumunod sa latest shows. when i cook, i experiment stuffs, wla akong specific na dish na sinusunod. ung journal ko and my other personal stuffs gusto ko handmade.at medyo maligalig ako kapag natutuwa ako ng sobra - - -

medyo kakaiba di ba?

now i have come to realize that, i have to manage my quirks. i've accepted them. as long as i put it in a socially acceptable manner without compromising myself to other people's expectations. ok na un. i can't please everybody. if a person can't accept me for who i really am it's his problem, non me ne frege.



* for those who love my past entries, thank you so much!!!

naligaw na prinsesa

yesterday, i accidentaly stepped on a kitten. pinulot ko at tinabi. pero, sumusunod sa akin. so, i just brought him home. i was suprised on my parent's reaction, nung nakita nila ung kitten. hindi sila nagalit saken, i just have to make sure daw na hindi magkakalat un. i gave myself one week, pag hindi ko sya kayang alagaan, ibibigay ko sya sa iba.
i actually called my friend who's a cat lover. pero, sabi nya bka masanay daw ako sa pag-alaga. bseides, ,marami na rin syang alaga. mhirap na un.

i guess i was meant to keep the cat because, God might be teaching me something. Before ako pumasok ng bahay, tinabi ko sya sa mga pusang kalye sa amin. hindi sya nilapitan. so tinago ko na lang. I named her "princess" kac, i believe the kitten is special. nkakaawa kac, ang she can only see through her left eye.

things worth sharing---from a college grad

-graduation day: with my two best friends in college-
moving out of one's comfort zone can be downright scary. that's what i'm experiencing right now. i'm not a student anymore, no more daily allowances, late night crammings, nerve wracking recitations in labor, and the list goes on. needless to say, i don't have a license to be a kid.
i'm already considered an adult and expected to act like one. after graduation, i've realized that i have other roles to fulfill. it's up to me, kung paano ko patatakbuhin yung buhay ko.this time, you're going to make your own syllabous, not your professors. you have so much freedom, but you have to be responsible with your actions. mas importante ngaun ung diskarte. i believe, i cn do it.

i really miss ust, my friends, and professors, but most of all, i miss learning. but learning doesn't stop in the four wall of the classroom. actually, i consider myself as a student of life. for me, learning is a lifetime experience. what's important is that i must tap in to the things that i'm passionate about. after i marched, i told myself, "i won't allow my work to make me dumb". based from my corporate stint last year, i've learned that doing monotonous tasks really exhausts us. but, i should not limit on the things that are given to me. i put it this way, if i know, i can do or be more in my status quo, i should explore, i should think outside the box. besides, work is just a slice of life, it's not the entire pizza. i should not take things personally. working eight hours doesn't stop me from doing the things that i'm passionate about. i believe that successful people are those who are making the most out of their limited resources.

i describe myself as a dreamer and a pragmatist at the same time. i dream. i love to go beyond borders, love to break people's expectations. i like to help other's dreams come true. i hate the idea that people box me na, "hanggang dito lang ang kaya mo, u can't go too far". i love proving other people that they're wrong. in high school, i was most people think that i can't be good at anything. it bothered me for a while, but i considered it as "non-sense". i moved on with my life, i focused on my priorities. now i'm proud to say that my efforts paid off and with God's grace, i was able to graduate in a prestigious university.

i am a pragmatist because i'm practical at the same time. i made sure that i've maximized my resources. i have so many endeavors. ang dami kong gustong gawin sa buhay ko. actually, i'm planning that after college, to teach less fortunate children about christ's teaching and to serve in our church. i also want to take crash courses on baking, fashion design, or bead making. but i don't have the luxury of time and money. but i can't do all these things, because i found myself responsible in our family business. before i arrived with this decision, i prayed to God first, because i believe that if i put my faith in him, everything else will follow. as written in the bible, "commit to the Lord all your plans, and your plans will succeed." this made sense, first things first. how can i teach other children if i can't teach my little brother? and how can i help my family if i'm serving the church most of the time, to think that there are responsibilities na ako lang ang makaka-gawa. whatever i do, i put my trust in God because i believe that everything will fall into place.

chopsuey

-i've made this title because i want to post every thought that ran through my head. -

joyfully single
i've learned that some of you're views today may not be the same 5 years after. i'm talking from experience. the person that u thought u wanted when u were, 15 may not be the person u wanted today. because of experiences, we learn and our values become more defined. the more matured we get, the more that we realize the characters that we want in a person.
i'm already 21, and i'm not a kid anymore. i'm expected to act as an adult. but i'm not that old, i have a lot of 'growing up' to do. this means that i don't want to rush things. petix lang muna, ika nga ni claye. i don't want to rush into a relationship just because i like the person. liking and knowing a person are two different things. i know, relationshps are not easy. kaya, i think that it's better to know the person first before we get emotionally attached. ewan ko, basta all i don't need to take all things seriously, kelangan timplahin muna.

being me
all i want to do right now is to move on with my life. ung mga memories ko, iniwan ko na sa college. babalikan ko na lang pag kinakailangan. i want to start from scratch. kaya nga magpapahinga muna ako for one month before i work. i have to take all the rests that i need to take, but at the same time i also have to prepare myself. i want to take my life one at a time.
i want to get focused on the things that i'm passionate while fulfilling my obligations in my family.

bum culture
hell no! i won't rest forever. i can't imagine myself asking money from my parents. nahihiya na ako! but i admit, nage-enjoy ako magpahinga. movie marathon, excessive blogging, 10 hours of sleep, voracious reading, browsing christian bautista 24/7....i love it! now i have the luxury of time to do all these things, though i know that this will not last long. i've currently finished watching "Bagets". It's really hilarious, those were the days were aga mulach was the boy next door and herbert bautista was the comic geek. and oh! their outfits were really ridiculous. thank God, i wasn't a teenager that time. i can't even imagine wearing pink leggings and yellow top with matching walkman... yuck! but not all of the old flicks that i've watched were ugly. i've also watched breakfast at tiffany', it's really timeless. i believe, most of the romantic comedy flicks that werer produced recently were patterned from that movie. i can descirbe audrey as humorous, but still manages to stay classy. that's why she stands out. fyi, she's one of my fashion icons. my grad dress was inspired from that movie. it's simple yet elegant. see?! i'm not bumming for nothing

deutsche stretche

ang weird ng nung nangyari nung pauwi ako. nagmamadali ako, palabas na ako ng espana, ---basta, nagmamadali akong naglalakad. may nakbangga ako, nabitawan ko yung hawak kong toga. pinulot nung nkabangga ko. nag-sorry sya saken. sabi ko, ok lang, pero hindi ko na tinignan kac matangkad eh. ang alam ko lang medyo lukot ung polo ya. .... shucks! naku! baka c 'stretch' yun! oh no! nkaka-hiya, kung sya man un, ang suplada ata nung dating ko. tsk, tsk tsk. hala, isa siyang pala-icpan!

hay, naku, bakit ko ba pine-pressure yung sarili ko. petix lang ko dapat.
hmmm.dschryt! dapat ganito lagi.....

kung sya man un, at least, may nagpa-ganda ng araw ko. yey!

*para dun sa mga ka-close ko, kilala nyo na kung cno c stretch*

be thankful daw. cge na nga c",

grabe init ngaun! mabuti na lang at my na-discover ako na astig na food. it's called cerealicious. madali na tuloy ako mag-crave ng cereals-- yum! shucks, bka tumaba ako. oh no!..k lang masarap naman. sabi nga ng isang prof namin, do what makes you happy as long as you're not stepping on other people. oo nga naman. magsasaya ako. bwahhahaha and let the 'problem' worry about itself.
i deserve to be happy. i really do. syempre, im going do graduate this wednesday na. i'm really excited. pero i'm going to miss those people who made college life worthwhile (both good and bad). i'm thankful for having them. i don't have room for absurdities. i'm glad i've met different kinds of people, ang dami ko talagang natutunan. i was really challenged, kung hindi dahil sa mga tao na 'to, i will never strive to become a better version of myself. God is really good, he really knows what's best for me.
for those people who don't really know me or mababaw ung pagkakilala sa akin. thank you, the more you say something, the more that i realize that i'm a worthwhile person. i feel so sorry for you. kac, you're just helping me boost my self esteem. astig nga eh. mas naiicp ko pa tuloy yung mga tingin ni God saken.
it's better to please God than man. kaya, i'd strive to become the person that he wants me to be than gloating over uneccessary comments of people. i'd rather stay happy. there are so many reasons to be thankful. i was so blessed that God is sending in my life for his special purpose.
i know it's hard pero i chose to follow his footsteps. like Christ, marami din ang marami pa akong dapat pag-aksayahan ng oras. thanks, anyway.bumabatikos, nagle-label. but it's ok. i don't need them. sa inyo na lang yan. i "really want to forgive you. "whatever you say or do to me, i'm still a worthwhile person."
thank you, dahil mas na-realize ko na marami ang nagva-value sa akin, kac they know me deeply. they appreciate me for who i really am. it's true that if you really have good intentions, it will really reflect. kahit may nagco-contradict saken.
GOD bless!

-graduation-

i woke up one morning and realized that i'm not a kid anymore. after my practicum days, i felt that people expected more from me. in my family, my parents expects a lot from me. they want me to take charge in our family business. i felt pressured, but when i've come to realize that, i just see it as an opportunity to grow. at first, i felt that they want to limit my capacities, but later on, i've realized that they wanted to expand my potentials. this is also an avenue where i apply some concepts that i've learned in school, because my degree deals with people at work.
this serves as a training ground for me. this is my edge, this is something that i could prove to my future employers. i was not able to get into the dean's list, but my grades were ok naman eh.

college life will never be the same without the people who have inspired me. college life was a mystery, at first. but now, it's a treasure. college is the golden age of my life (i guess, i've said this before). i may not be an academic achiever, i may not be the most brilliant person in class. but, i have something to be proud of myself. it's the lessons that i've learned, no grade can amount to that. i will never forget atty bong lopez and sir galan. two professors that made a great impact in my life. learning will never be the same without them.
atty. bong lopez- i can describe him as a terror of reason. he bitches about everything and offered a different perspective in life. i've learned that being a student doesn't stop at school.
he exudes passion in molding us. what sets him apart from the other professors is that he was able to produce individuals that makes a difference. i admired him because he pushed me to become more of what is expected from a normal student. he is not only successful in his carreer, but he is also successful in his vocation.
sir galan-the fagot of the literature. he made me become aware of my rights of being a woman. he even told the class "kaya kau, magka-degree muna kau." i began to value education more. later on, i considered myself as a feminist. i became assertive of my worth. because of the lessons that he told us, i've realized how great it is to become a woman.
i will miss the moments where my convictions were challenged. i will never be the same without these people.

now it's about time to take another step. ito na ang tunay na karera ng buhay. i know that i don't have to fear antyhing because im ready to face the challenges ahead of me. with those four years that i've spent in college, it's about time to prove myself.

turning point

-graduation is fast approaching and i try to look back on some moments of my college life that i will never forget. i entered college life with an empty box waiting to get filled. i can't remember everything, but i will never forget how i've changed.-

ok here's a piece of some of the stories that i will treasure for a lifetime

it took place a month ago when we were doing our thesis. it was a week of physical, emotional, and stress. in other words, i became "tuliro" because i felt that i can't deliver well in our thesis and some of my personal relationships with other people were strained. i would leave at 8 am and go home at 10 pm. my parents, thought that i was just engrossed with school work, but they do not know that there were other things that has been killing me. two of my closest friends were not my thesismates, so i somehow find it hard to open to my groupmates. however, i was blessed that i've bonded with my thesismates because they made me closer to God. then, there were this vampires that drains me because they channel their miseries to me, i don't even know why.the weeks before our defense were really tough, but i'm glad i've survived. there was a week that i feel like quitting everything as in everything because i was really strained and felt that i can't do it anymore. i will never forget it because it was a turning point in my life. i am really down when extraordinary incidents took place. i can manage academic pressures but i'm not good in handling "emotional vampires".it's really pathetic that there are people who will be rude to you even if you're nice to them. i was victimized by these people anyway, that was the time when i felt that god reached out to me. he used the other people to save me. there was this person whom i thought, i would help him, but it's the other way around. he went to the classroom to get his stuff, then i approached him, i started the conversation about our professors, then i disclosed the things that has been bothering me. i can't help it, i cried. then he told me these , "angelica, mabuti kang tao, you are special, maraming nagmamahal sa'yo.kapit lang." they really struck me because, i've waited for someone to say these things to me, though i felt that my friends have been taking care of me. these lines sounds so melodramatic but these makes when you are in a verge of falling down. as human beings we need positive reinforcements to lift our spirits.
another took place was when i'm on my way home. i was alone then, i felt so anxious, i felt that those experiences piled up. when i used to think about them, they were, like forming a monster in my head, leaving me helpless. then, i suddenly ran inside the church, i decided to confess. i prayed to God "kahit po maiksi lang yung confession, as long as i felt your prescence, i'll be fine."
then i began to confess. i told him what i really felt. then, he asked me if he could talk to me after confession. i told him my experiences that piled up. after that, i felt much better. though, i haven't fully recovered, i felt empowered. i felt that my load became lighter. the moment i confessed, God talked talked to me. I will never forget that week, because i've realized that God was will never abandon me. he was my refuge, my pillar of strength. For non believers, i'm telling you God is real, you just have to believe. despite of those things that transpired, i don't have any reason to get angry with him. following Christ's footsteps is the most difficult thing to do. my previous experiences were my struggles because i chose to follow him. This is a story that worth sharing, a story that i feel proued to tell. i hope that my story will help others. Just P.U.S.H (Pray Until Something Happens) !

naunsyaming pagtatagpo atbp.

grabe, i really got dissapointed last saturday kac i wasnt able to see christian bautista. nasa sm din ako nung time nung album tour nya, kaso lang bumibili kami ng damit ng kapatid ko, yep, im with my dad and brother. tsk tsk tsk Nkakalungkot tlaga. But that's ok, I'm not that desperate naman eh. kuntento na akong mkta ko sya sa tv, pero sayang lang ung chance ko kac i wasnt able to see him in the flesh.

yes, aminado ako na avid fan ako (it shows naman sa mg pics ko di ba?)( but i'm telling you, i'm not one of those "banshees" that desperately grab him ang strip his clothes..yuck! it's so pathetic. may nabasa ako lately na one his worst experiences is that there was this who grabbed and kissed him, and stripped his clothes sa kalagitnaan ng concert. it was so stupid and mortifyng talaga. ewan ko ba, hindi ko maintindihan yung iba na they worship their idols like they were immortals.
eh mga tao din naman cla noh?! i don't get it, blt naman kac kelangan maging animal yung iba.

tickle test

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i should have posted this earlier

The incident took a more than 2 weeks ago. anyway, that was the time na ngarag ako sa paggawa ng resume sa job fair at maghabol sa mga subjects. Maraming nasagasaan na subjects nung tragedy eh. As I've said before, I really wanted to move on. Meaning, I have to get rid of anything that drags my energy. Hindi na kac nakaka-tulong sobra.
It was wednesday afternoon, we don't have classes that time. so, job fair lang talaga yung pinunta ko. After updating my resume, I headed to the library to study. Humiram ako ng book sa Civil Law section tapos dun ko binasa sa Soc Sci kac nadun yunf favorite spot ko, malapit sa window. Anyway, pagkatapos ko basahin ung book, pumunta na ako sa Civil Law para ibalik yung book. Nung papunta na ako, sumayad yung favorite kong flip flops (ingat na ingat pa naman ako dun kac it's very rare), nasira xia, as in! Papunta ako sa Civil Law, kinakaladkad ko yung flip flops ng paa ko, at mabuti na lang medyo flared yung pants ko kaya medyo tago yung paa ko. Napunta na ako sa civil Law, kinakaladkad ko ung paa ko. Tapos pagpasok ko, may kaharap akong guy na lagi ko na lang xiang nakaka-sabay sa elevator at lagi ko xiang nakkta evrytime na may 'mishaps' na nangyayari sa ken sa library. *take note kamuka nya ung nasa pic* what i'm saying is that this was my encounter with him for the nth time. Pero ngaun, nagka-tinginan kami, at na-feel ko ang pagka-pahiya ko. Isip ako ng strategy na hindin obvious..sana. I faked a sprain, kunwari masakit ung paa ko. Hindi ko na kayang pumunta sa counter para kunin ung id ko, pina-abot ko na lang sa s.a. ung id ko. Grabe--kahiya!

*after nun, I asked myself, "mag-move on na kaya ako?" kac walng mangyayari saken kung naka-stuck ako sa trahedya na un di ba?. after that incident, parang bumabalik na onti-onti ung lhat sa normal. it was like everything fell into place----> astig! *

Moving on...

=So what's with the flip flops? For me this is a sign of moving on. Yes, you got it right, I m moving on, I want to. =

Today is my last day of being a student. My day started right and it ended gracefully. Actually, I really wanted this day to be special. I planned my activities for the day and I made sure that I look my best. I embraced this day with enthusiasm and excitement. I'm really confident that God would guide me. There lots of things that I really look forward to.

I started this day right, pero there are people who tried to rain on my parade by attempting to treat me bad. Basta, they're so frigid and I really feel sorry for them. The heck! Honestly, they pissed me of. But I didn't allow them to ruin my day completely. tsk tsk tsk, pathetic whiners.

Then, we had our seminar this afternoon. After that I've realized that the people that really matters to me. Shucks! I'm going to miss them. Kac naman, I've focused so much on the "wrong" people. Pero, I've saved the best for last. I'll rather stick with the people who really cared about me.

This day ended right. Basta, I'll just make another post for that,

anything goes

i can't think of any title...
>i just had my oral exams in ethics. i'm done, finally.
> here are the list of things that i would really love to do after graduation or as soon as i have the luxury of time.
1. before i work, i'll rest for a month
2. take up yoga classes
3. help in our family business
4. watch european flicks-
next time na lang iba, tinatamad na ako..

the hell with valentines

Oh my God, it's valentines day uh-gain. So what's the big deal about it right?

Yes, I admit,I hate this ocassion

i hate this occassion because this is just the same as April fool's, Why?.. let me quote jessica zafra, to explain things further. Here are the things that i've learned from her article, "VALENTINES, APRIL FOOLS, WHAT'S THE DIFF?"

Valentines and April Fool are just the same, they just differ on the date being celebrated

During February 14, most people exaggerate their way of expressing their feelings, leaving their "so-called" loved ones disillusioned. Moreover,people tend to "sugar-coat" everything . I pity those people who are easily persuaded by "mushy stuffs" or what we call empty words/promies. Thank God, I'm not one of them-Haha! While on April 1, prankster's come out of their shells and victimize other people. In these ocassions, 2 types of individual's emerged : the nang-uutos(decievers) and the u2u2's (gullible)

Valentines day deprives people of their fundamental right to choose when to express their feelings.

This occassion fosters the notion that romantic feelings need be expressed only once a year. This is not an acceptable behavior for us human beings since we need constant doses of positive reinforcement.

It forces you to make a decision you are not prepared to make

This may cause some individuals to act on impulse. For example, a hopeless romantic person desperately seeks to find a date just to charm the day. Then on the next day , he will come to realize his date is not the one that he wanted. (this is really a common tendency to guys---the LESSER BEINGS).

Valentines Day discriminates mercilessly against persons who are not currently involved in relationships

The sight of couples engaged in public displays of affection is enough to make unattached persons feel like emotional retardates. Even if you are perfectly happy not to be involved with someone, Valentines Day aspersions upon you. I am affiliated with SMS(Sarap Maging Single). Meaning ,I'm happy being single. I hate Feb 14 is beacause the society boxed this ocassion for lovers. Hey! What about singles, like me?! Isn't this ocassion meant for spreading Love? I mean , it's not just romantic love, right? Oh well what can I do to change the perception of the people. We're already on the post-modern era, and not on Romanticism. I guess, people should have a better understanding about this matter. I'm a pragmatic person and i assure you that I won't get carried away by the bandawagon.
So, I guess that what I've just stated above would substantially justify and rationalize why i hate this freaking ocassion.

THE HELL WITH VALENTINES

fx moment (simple lang)

8:30 pm
i was on my way home. nag-aabang ng fx sa p.noval. after a few minutes of waiting. nakasakay na rin ako. finally.

-mga katapaat ko ang dalawang taong maingay na super panget ang vocabulary. mga walang breedng, senseless, sayang ang porma nila. tsk tsk tsk.

-enough of that. kakatapos lang nang defense, kelangan ipahinga muna ang icp. everything's plain and simple. npaka-blangko ng icp ko. i don't have anything to think about, except, magpahinga.

-->nagbayad ako. inabot ko sa tao sa harapan ko. bigla syang humarap--ano 'to? fx moment?

looks' familiar, have we met b4?--i wanted to ask these questions to that person, i just can't.

'kaw ba c ALDO? (ay, psycho statement na namn, hija!) nd ko tlga cnabi to

'hawig sya ni xtian bautista--oo totoo yon.

natulog muna ako sandali...

perfect and timing..

pagkagcing ko..sakayan na ng nia...

kami na lang ang natira sa fx...

bumaba na ako..

sumakay na ako ng jeep...

napaicp ako: cno un?

"father, I love you kasi!!!"

*may nakapag kwento lang sa kin nito. it seems to be fictional, anyway, i find it stupid and at the same time, hilarious(kahit papaano). hindi ako ang bida dito.

*we were in grade six back then, when we had our first retreat. isa lang an retreat master nun na nag-handle sa 4 sections. yes, he's good looking(meztizo, matangkad), at ang daming nagkaka-gandarapa sa kanya.unfortunately, i'm not one of them. nd kac sya hawig ni prince william eh. hehehe. i don't like him, kac he's very arrogant. kaya sa mga sessions, nd ako maka-pag disclose agad..

so, eto na nga, nangyari daw 2 sa ibang section. there was this girl, and we really label her as "biatch", as in everybody seems to hate her, kac she's so mean. nung isang session daw nung evening, they were not asked to bring anything. eto daw sya, nagdala ng magazine. they were asked to settledown, para maka-pag start. basa pa rin sya, kasama ung barkada nya. until they caught fr. j's attention. nagalitc father , at cnabi nya na "bkt ka nagadala nyan, di sabi ko walang kelangang dalin?!" nagulat daw ung ibang tao nung cnabi nung girl na to "FATHER, I LOVE YOU KASI!!!" she just did that to catch his attention...wrong move...

remote control and the panic/discussion room

another psycho moment na naman ang nangyari kahapon...

we are currently having our thesis meeting yesterday sa discussion room sa library. clear ang glass ng bawat room, kaya makkta mo bawat taong dumadaan. may dumaan na mga law students, ung isa sumenyas, kung nasa amin ung remote. tapos, sumagot naman ung isang classmate ko, sbi nya wla at sumesenyas sya ng parang may tinittxt. so ganun, umalis na cla papunta sa knilang room. nang biglang humirit ung classmate namin, "sabi ko sa kanya wala akong cell phone" (she's referring dun sa guy na naghanap nung remote).so tawa naman kami, ang biglang nag-react ung nasa kabilang room(cla pala un), "'kala nya hinihingi ko ung number o", tapos, tumawa din cla. so ako gumanti, sbi ko, "hahaha, narinig pla tau". at nakitawa din kami. so in short, twanan ang nsa 2 room: kami at cla. tawa na kung tawa. after mga 10 mins, kumatok ung librarian sa 'min kung kami daw ba ung maingay? syempre, sabat naman ako, sbi ko nd, pero ung kasama humingi ng apology. hay nku, kutob ko, ung mga law students ung nag-sumbong(msama mag judge, hmm). kung cla man.. hello?! 2mawa din cla

*kac naman, bakit naman nd sound proof ung discussion room sa ust?kaya nga discussion eh, the technology kac naman, pare, it was like 1611? anong petsa na?!pero, in fairness humahabol ang skul namin...

remote control and the panic/discussion room

another psycho moment na naman ang nangyari kahapon...

we are currently having our thesis meeting yesterday sa discussion room sa library. clear ang glass ng bawat room, kaya makkta mo bawat taong dumadaan. may dumaan na mga law students, ung isa sumenyas, kung nasa amin ung remote. tapos, sumagot naman ung isang classmate ko, sbi nya wla at sumesenyas sya ng parang may tinittxt. so ganun, umalis na cla papunta sa knilang room. nang biglang humirit ung classmate namin, "sabi ko sa kanya wala akong cell phone" (she's referring dun sa guy na naghanap nung remote).so tawa naman kami, ang biglang nag-react ung nasa kabilang room(cla pala un), "'kala nya hinihingi ko ung number o", tapos, tumawa din cla. so ako gumanti, sbi ko, "hahaha, narinig pla tau". at nakitawa din kami. so in short, twanan ang nsa 2 room: kami at cla. tawa na kung tawa. after mga 10 mins, kumatok ung librarian sa 'min kung kami daw ba ung maingay? syempre, sabat naman ako, sbi ko nd, pero ung kasama humingi ng apology. hay nku, kutob ko, ung mga law students ung nag-sumbong(msama mag judge, hmm). kung cla man.. hello?! 2mawa din cla

*kac naman, bakit naman nd sound proof ung discussion room sa ust?kaya nga discussion eh, the technology kac naman, pare, it was like 1611? anong petsa na?!pero, in fairness humahabol ang skul namin...

catastrophes, mishaps--whatever you call it!

*ang maka-nkasulat dito ay pawang katotohanan. may tinago ang kanilang mga pangalan upang ang kanilang mga pagkatao'y mapangalagaan. 'wag tutularan, wag gagayahin ng mga bata, nyek!< hmmm pyscho statement na naman>

la bella

about 3 years ago, nung una kong na-encounter c bella flores. naalala ko nung time na madalas kong ginagaya ung boses nya (that husky, creepy voice). so here it goes.. nakapila kami ng friend ko sa watsons sa sm north, nang biglang sumingit tong c bella flores sa pila namin at gumawa pa ng eksena. "ang haba ng pila dito darling". and i was like, ano ba 'to "pa-star", damatands naman. grabe ung outfit nya, tanda ko pa na she's wearing this skimpy shorts and shirts with a foral bandana na spring colors, ung pambahay na nilagayan ng arte, at ang make-up, nd pantay ung kulay ng mukha sa leeg. tapos eto ang friend ko, pinakitaan ako ng 500 pesos, she dared me na magpa-AUTOGRAPH kay bella, then i'll get the money, pwdng pagkain, ako na daw ang bhala. so i asked her.(500 din un noh!) nanginginig pa ako when i flashed her a smile. it's really nerve wracking, sobra! then sabi nya "never mind, we will get to know each other soon". ang daming taong nkaka-kita nung incident. nd lang dahil napahiya ako, wala rin akong 500. tapos, tinanong pa nya kung san kami nag-aaral, sabi na lang namin, "excuse me, but we really have to go na po" bigla kaming takbo ng friend ko. parang gusto naming mag-maskera sa hiya... :p

lesson: wag nyo kaming tutularan

wow! Hotdog

eto, medyo unforgettable. second year ako nung nangyari to:

bumibili kami ng classmate ko sa coop ng tuna sandwich. may bibilin lang ako sa kabilang stall, tapos pinabantay ko sa kanya ang wallet ko. pag balik ko sa stall na un, may nakita akong guy na nagla-lagay ng ketchup sa hotdog, nd na ako tumingala kac ina-assume ko na sya un, tangkad kac eh. so, nag-biro ako, "WOW HOTDOG!, PAHINGI NAMAN". (ang stupid pa ng itsura ko, ung dilat na dilat na enthusiastic, bsta ganun).then, only to realize na nd sya ung classmate ko, then bigla nagulat ung guy at nag-taka,he was like, ay beket?!! classmate ko nasa kabilang dulo pa, nkta nya ung nangyari, and we couldn't stop laughing afterwards. sabi ko sa kanya, "dude,2mawa muna tau bago mo kunin ung order mo". --grabeng psycho moment 'to

malabong mata

bsta, sorry kung mabasa mo 'to. anonymous ka naman eh. papunta kami ng friend ko sa benavidez para mag-kwen2han ng masinsinan. nung nasa hall way kami. nkta namin na pasalubong ung crush ko nung time na un. sbi ko sa friend ko nung palapit ung guy "c dino, ung naka-commerce na uniform na matangkad, pasalubong, wag kang maingay bka mkhalata" nagka-salubong nag kami nung crush ko, biglang humirit ung friend ko "uy ghel, ang gwapo pala nya eh"<:take note:1. katapat na namin ung guy nung cnabi nya un 2.ang lakas tlga nang boses nya, as in harapan nya na kasalubong > shucks!!! napahiya ako. iba pala ung nkita nung friend ko. sa inis ko, gusto kong mag-freak out sa inis, pero super sorry naman ung friend ko eh. but from then on, pag nagkaka-salubong kami nung guy, parang gugustuhin ko na lang maging invisible. for a while, i feel that i don't have the face to show him.