Dyahe

"Dyahe" in Filipino means something that makes a person uncomfortable to reveal.

This word would be apt for this entry.

Right now, I have something that I wanted to share but felt uneasy to do so. I wanted to tell this to my friends, but I'm still itching to write it. What I'm going to disclose in this article was probable appropriate for teenagers. But for people in my age, I don't know.

For the past few weeeks, I caught myself attracted to this guy. The last time I saw him, I told myself, "He looks nice." I secretly glance at him from afar because I don't want to be mistaken as a "psycho" or "stalker".
I've had awkward moments with him and sometimes I wish that he would forget me soon.I've had bad experiences with those guys that I used to like. And this time, I wish that it won't happen again.

What makes me "dyahe" to reveal this is because he's ten years older than me. Feeling
ko nakak-karma ako. Before, I use to make "okray" about guys who were a decade older than me. I kept on telling my friends,"Ayoko yan, atat na yan magpa-kasal".
Shucks! I never thought that I would get attracted to this guy. How I wish that my emotions would change quickly, or sana na lang wala akong pakiramdam.
I admit, I want to get close to him or have the chance to work with him because I want to know this guy without romance. I find it easier to get close to a guy if I'm not attracted.

At this point, I wanted to talk to him. But I can't. "Dyahe" kasi if I'm going to make the first move. The best thing that I could do is blog about him. Mabuti na lang at hindi niya ako masyadong kilala. I'm sure that he won't read this.
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Whatever happens it the future, bahala na si Batman